tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post4564917700279314375..comments2023-10-28T02:10:24.255-07:00Comments on blog.thenarcissistinyourlife.com: My Mother the Covert Narcissistlmlphd@thenarcissistinyourlife.comhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04100613020268687643noreply@blogger.comBlogger12125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-74582152057266365582018-08-13T02:22:19.454-07:002018-08-13T02:22:19.454-07:00I stumbled across Diana Macey's book by chance...I stumbled across Diana Macey's book by chance and while I wouldn't dare to claim I had a worse experience than she did there were many things that struck a chord with me. The fact is the net results have been just as damaging to my sense of self worth, my personality, my relationships and the effects on those I love. I'm presently in the final stages of divorce from the woman I love caused now I believe by the fallout from my childhood and adolescent experience. I've developed a crippling lack of ability to be intimate when in a relationship and unfortunately the counselling we received both together and for me solo was geared to more conventionally caused issues and ultimately it did not address my problems. <br /><br />So here I am now separated from my wife and son wondering if I can fix myself. Even if it's only to the degree of accepting that perhaps relationships are not for me and learning to be comfortable with being single.<br /><br />Foo Fighters "On the mend" has become my anthem of hope, fingers crossed! ☺Marchttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13444927602202903633noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-17214534066979924532018-08-13T02:20:29.144-07:002018-08-13T02:20:29.144-07:00This comment has been removed by the author.Marchttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13444927602202903633noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-72164273862560373442018-03-03T14:56:44.030-08:002018-03-03T14:56:44.030-08:00this is my my story...... scapegoat....I spent lot...this is my my story...... scapegoat....I spent lots of time at friends homes....I am very creative and empathetic almost to fault. Thank you for postingAmberhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17737829657399045178noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-31380471922296696652018-02-02T09:55:45.004-08:002018-02-02T09:55:45.004-08:00Barbie, I discovered that my mother was a covert n...Barbie, I discovered that my mother was a covert narcissist probably about 2-3 years ago, I just turned 46. I actually have a very dysfunctional family of origin that I didn't see until recently. I knew they were screwed up in some ways, but didn't understand the depths of the dysfunction, the roles that everyone was playing, how I was typecast as the scapegoat and how it has negatively impacted my life. Its been a lot to take on. Just wanted you and everyone to know that we are not alone in this journey. There are a lot of great people and resources out there to help--Linda being one of them. If you haven't already read the book "Narcissistic Mothers and Covert Emotional Abuse: For Adult Children of Narcissistic Parents" by Diana Macey, you might want to check it out.Narcissistic Abuse Survivorhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07021693695901008310noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-24292242888491383792017-05-24T10:42:04.160-07:002017-05-24T10:42:04.160-07:00I 've come to the realization that my mom is a...I 've come to the realization that my mom is a covert narcissist. Whenever I am around her I feel this overwhelming guilt and never understood why until I read this article. Narc moms infuse their kids with guilt. I wonder why.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-48210273787715765472016-12-29T20:27:38.208-08:002016-12-29T20:27:38.208-08:00Thank you for sharing that. I relate so much to wh...Thank you for sharing that. I relate so much to what you said. I am also an only child and was forced into both roles and actually just now, after reading your post, realized that my enabling father was also put into them. I know that she's destroyed him but sadly I know he will never realize it. I used to look at him as my savior, although he didn't condemn her bad behavior he would always step in when she took it too far, but then I hit puberty. I strived to be perfect because the only time that I felt any sense of pride or acceptance from her was when others would gush to her about how pretty or smart or talented I was. The irony of course is that when she was done reveling in their compliments of this "extension or her" she would take the first opportunity to point out my flaws. She would criticize me in a way that sounded like caring or she would make blatant jabs then insist she was kidding and that I'm too sensitive, she of course did this to remind me that anything good about me was all thanks to her and even my own looks weren't something that I had a right to take pride in (and I'm adopted btw so she didn't even have a part in that). Needless to say, her perceived competion with me crept into my relationship with my father and he slowly and subtly was forced to choose between me and her. He chose her. She continued to build that divide when I went away to college and now I feel completely disconnected from him. I am very recently unraveling all of this and I feel like I'm falling apart but realizing at the same time that I was never assembled properly. It makes me sick to know now what I always felt but didn't believe was possible; my mother doesn't love me, she never did. There's something empowering about that, I no longer crave her affection or acceptance because I know that no matter How much I deserve it she doesn't have it to give. I hate her but I also pity her. Now I have to try to forgive her. I now understand what game she's playing and I won't let her win.trinityhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13739448187912013983noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-24233952080978678922016-11-26T17:01:27.371-08:002016-11-26T17:01:27.371-08:00That was a very clear description of my mother, ex...That was a very clear description of my mother, except as an only child and a boy, the roles of the scapegoat and golden 'child' was back and forth between me and my father. She destroyed him and she almost destroyed me. I am so happy I have finally found the key to unlocking my complex, it literally feels like I am draining and cleaning a septic wound in my mind as I become more and more conscious of the reality of what occurred. I literally feels like I am unraveling a ball of yarn as I am connecting the dots. It is a new lease on my life. Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05439594852875990044noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-66189353457147674182016-01-17T23:49:09.590-08:002016-01-17T23:49:09.590-08:00I echo completely what Barbie is saying and I , to...I echo completely what Barbie is saying and I , too, am the family scapegoat and it's been incredibly painful over all these years. I'm 45 now and it really wasn't til my early 40's that I really looked at this very much "head on", faced the real reality of everything and educated myself on NPD and covert narcissists (which is what my NM is) in particular. Grateful for the many resources online and also on YouTube that serve as educational and supportive places for us survivors of narcissistic mothers/parents//partners etc., to get more clarity and affirmation as to what we've gone through and that it's not our fault!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17000864087576697460noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-87765616415264653862016-01-17T23:47:43.600-08:002016-01-17T23:47:43.600-08:00I echo completely what Barbie is saying and I , to...I echo completely what Barbie is saying and I , too, am the family scapegoat and it's been incredibly painful over all these years. I'm 45 now and it really wasn't til my early 40's that I really looked at this very much "head on", faced the real reality of everything and educated myself on NPD and covert narcissists (which is what my NM is) in particular. Grateful for the many resources online and also on YouTube that serve as educational and supportive places for us survivors of narcissistic mothers/parents//partners etc., to get more clarity and affirmation as to what we've gone through and that it's not our fault!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17000864087576697460noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-4217257082429350352015-12-17T10:48:28.419-08:002015-12-17T10:48:28.419-08:00This is 100% accurate. I struggled to put my thou...This is 100% accurate. I struggled to put my thoughts together into any meaningful kind of way and this explains it so well. Surviving covert narc thing that gave birth to mehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14590644356160171048noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-43390316054776974742015-01-25T23:03:54.432-08:002015-01-25T23:03:54.432-08:00My personal experience of having a covert narc mot...My personal experience of having a covert narc mother in animation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=isufXjED3_0Joddlehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14096463721164499291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3932213214115952683.post-65394526863359738002015-01-22T18:58:52.662-08:002015-01-22T18:58:52.662-08:00You just described my life to a T. T for Truth. I ...You just described my life to a T. T for Truth. I am the family scapegoat, recently uncovering the reason for my pain! In the past, I blew my mother off as "clueless", frustrated, anxious, and peeved that she never understood my perspective. Now I know her personality (disorder) dictated every manipulative statement. It hurts! How grateful I am to be smart enough to piece the clues together, even at this late age (43). Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com