Never underestimate the callousness of the narcissist. He/she is merciless. If you are in the full bloom of his infatuation with you--then you are The One and he won't let you forget it. This phase doesn't last long. You may believe that he still loves you (He never did--Narcissists are incapable of love). This is not true. He is just barely going through the motions. In fact not long after the marriage, a few years, months, decades, depending on his fancy and other opportunities he has for other women to adore him., he wants you out of his life--the quicker the better.
If you get sick he doesn't give a damn. If you get real sick, he is inconvenienced and pissed. "You drive yourself to the hospital. You're putting on an act--I can tel and it's not convincing." This has really happened. Believe it, this is how cold and disgusting these individuals can be when their adoring audience is not present. He pretends to care about your welfare but this is all show. His relatives and friends think he is an extraordinary person--a great family man. Really!!! It is not unusual after the marriage is in dark distress for the narcissistic husband to flip the entire family to his side. Don't catch yourself flat footed. Remember, without a conscience the narcissist is morally agile--he can go in any direction he wants at high speed. Others have to think and weigh the consequences of their judgements: Will this hurt someone? Will I hurt this person's feelings? The narcissist doesn't go through this exercise---ever. He forges ahead in the fast lane of his life and no one else matters.
So, you must learn to care about your own life and appreciate every gift that you have, every kindness you have shown to others and those that you will bestow in the future. Appreciate that you think about the feelings of others before you act--that you have a well developed conscience--that you are merciful to those who are vulnerable, afraid, weak and debilitated. And today there are so many of these people---living alone, barely holding on. You will find them and ease their suffering. You are a real human being. You have compassion and that is scarce these days. As you grow and individuate you will psychologically leave the narrow cruel life of the narcissist behind. You will continue to grow and re-create your life. I wish you my very best. Visit my website:thenarcissistinyourlife.com
Linda Martinez-Lewi, Ph.D.
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